Riding the Wave ... And the Trough

I am mentally ill, diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder I, OCD, ADHD, PTSD and a vitamin B12 deficiency (a key element in brain development). For over 12 years, I took anywhere from 5-8 psychotropic meds each day, and have been recently giving myself a monthly injection of B12.

In January 2012 I was hospitalized for depression, and management of my currrent med cocktail. Immediately all but two of my meds were discontinued and, after a few weeks of adjustment, and some near hospitalizations, things seem to be going much better.

I have been on permanent disability since January 2010, and am adjusting to life on a very limited income.

My prayer is that in walking with me during the ups and downs of Bipolar Disorder, you might find solace, and benefit through my experiences.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Please Lord, Keep My Illness On A Leash

I found out on Monday, October 12th at 7:45 pm. On October 20th, it was confirmed. After eight years at my current church, it was decided that they ask the Conference to make them a part-time charge. This means they will have a pastor for only 20 hours a week, and this pastor will need to be bivocational (ie; work at a secular job also). This will put me out into the world, for the first time, with no income or insurance. As you might recall, this is not a good time to go without insurance coverage.

My wife is in the middle of recovering from a massive stroke and crushed wrist. Currently I have Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder along with DJD, DDD, scoliosis and rapid breakdown of cartilage in my large joints (requiring a series of surgeries to "fuse" the joints). If we had to purchase our meds without insurance, it would cost about $600 each month.

With the possibility of the BiPolarPastor losing his pastor status, I feel it necessary to journal each day through this process to see if I can make it through. This will be a true test of my meds.

Stay tuned!


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