Riding the Wave ... And the Trough

I am mentally ill, diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder I, OCD, ADHD, PTSD and a vitamin B12 deficiency (a key element in brain development). For over 12 years, I took anywhere from 5-8 psychotropic meds each day, and have been recently giving myself a monthly injection of B12.

In January 2012 I was hospitalized for depression, and management of my currrent med cocktail. Immediately all but two of my meds were discontinued and, after a few weeks of adjustment, and some near hospitalizations, things seem to be going much better.

I have been on permanent disability since January 2010, and am adjusting to life on a very limited income.

My prayer is that in walking with me during the ups and downs of Bipolar Disorder, you might find solace, and benefit through my experiences.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Another Brick in the Wall - apologies to PF

And the plot thickens. Today I thought I might watch that I recently bought titled Revolution #9. It is about a young man who thinks the corporate world is controlling his mind, of which he slowly loses. I had recently purchased it, and it should have already arrived. First I looked on E'bay, but I hadn't purchased it there. Then I searched my account at Amazon and, sure enough, there it was. It had been shipped the third week in December. I wondered why I hadn't received it yet. Then I found the answer.

I had received it around December 28, watched it soon after that and put it in my library. That much I remembered, but I had no idea what it was about until I found and read about it on the Internet. Where the hell was I when I did all of this ... where was my mind. I still can't remember enough of the movie to describe it.

Deeper, deeper down the well the polly wolly doodle yells,
The master falls on further down, and we so fear he'll clog this well.
We cry and scream, people pass us by as though we were not here.
The fate of master down the well is sealed, or so we fear.

When falling as I am, does no one hear or even care.
A world of good and pleasant thoughts will never make life fair.

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