Riding the Wave ... And the Trough

I am mentally ill, diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder I, OCD, ADHD, PTSD and a vitamin B12 deficiency (a key element in brain development). For over 12 years, I took anywhere from 5-8 psychotropic meds each day, and have been recently giving myself a monthly injection of B12.

In January 2012 I was hospitalized for depression, and management of my currrent med cocktail. Immediately all but two of my meds were discontinued and, after a few weeks of adjustment, and some near hospitalizations, things seem to be going much better.

I have been on permanent disability since January 2010, and am adjusting to life on a very limited income.

My prayer is that in walking with me during the ups and downs of Bipolar Disorder, you might find solace, and benefit through my experiences.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

SO YOU THINK YOU ARE SO BAD ... just somethin' stuck in my craw

As I was writing the previous post earlier today, I started wondering why some people think they have to find some excuse as to why God won't, or can't, love them. In my years in ministry, occasionally someone would tell me that, "God can't love / forgive me because ... blah ... blah ... blah".

The "blah ... blah ... blah" was often replaced by, "I'm too bad", "I've done things too horrible to be forgiven", "I'm not important enough". I wanted to say, "Come on, give me a break". If you believe in Jesus Christ, then you know what He can do for you. No mater who you are, or what horrible, atrocious things you have done, His love is great enough to cover it.

Once again, this is just another excuse to avoid doing what Christ asks. But why do we go to such great lengths to avoid following Him? Evil has to overpower us to keep us on it's side, the bad side. Righteousness offers so many great things, but it is challenging, and sometimes unpopular, but belief needs to come from you. Coercion isn't used; belief comes from the heart, which is what makes it real. Since we decide to follow Christ, the faith we have is so real and personal.

Get off your high horse, and stop pretending that you are too much for God to handle.

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