"F.A.C.E.L.E.S.S.: journal

Riding the Wave ... And the Trough

I am mentally ill, diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder I, OCD, ADHD, PTSD and a vitamin B12 deficiency (a key element in brain development). For over 12 years, I took anywhere from 5-8 psychotropic meds each day, and have been recently giving myself a monthly injection of B12.

In January 2012 I was hospitalized for depression, and management of my currrent med cocktail. Immediately all but two of my meds were discontinued and, after a few weeks of adjustment, and some near hospitalizations, things seem to be going much better.

I have been on permanent disability since January 2010, and am adjusting to life on a very limited income.

My prayer is that in walking with me during the ups and downs of Bipolar Disorder, you might find solace, and benefit through my experiences.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Let The Games Begin

This evening I mailed off my letter explaining my decision to ask to be relocated next year. And, although the conents are supposed to be confidential, the news of me leaving will be out within an hour, no, half hour, of it being opened.

I have the assurance that the person who wants to take over at the pulpit won't be allowed. This ame person wants me gone so badly. He'll be disappointed when He discovers that my treatment had no bearing whatsoever on my decision. God simply told me my job there is completed, and He has new adventures for me elsewhere.

Now I must decide if I will apply for disability, keeping in mind that part-time pastors are not eligible. Over the past seven months I have had to make many life-changing decisions. I am unable, literally, to decide where to go for lunch. Let's think a bit and decide later. More to come.