Riding the Wave ... And the Trough

I am mentally ill, diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder I, OCD, ADHD, PTSD and a vitamin B12 deficiency (a key element in brain development). For over 12 years, I took anywhere from 5-8 psychotropic meds each day, and have been recently giving myself a monthly injection of B12.

In January 2012 I was hospitalized for depression, and management of my currrent med cocktail. Immediately all but two of my meds were discontinued and, after a few weeks of adjustment, and some near hospitalizations, things seem to be going much better.

I have been on permanent disability since January 2010, and am adjusting to life on a very limited income.

My prayer is that in walking with me during the ups and downs of Bipolar Disorder, you might find solace, and benefit through my experiences.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Weird Day

Today was unlike any other day I can recall. While driving to a picnic, I suddenly felt as if I was falling down a deep, dark hole. It felt like I shut down. I actually ran my car into my father-in-law, who was behind me as I backed up. I didn't even know it, even though people were yelling and screaming at me. It scared me senseless, and made me feel real, real bad. He was ok.

I slipped into a place where I am afraid that I might live eventually. After all, the more I visit the place, the more comfortable I feel. Who knows .....

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