3437 I have an illness that can be controlled by doing something that requires a task that the illness prevents from happening. That task is remembering.
I struggle with this as a part of everyday life. When the memory can't be trusted, unfortunately the person can't be trusted. Most of the things I think I have said or done I haven't. I am unable to explain a series of events because I'll undoubtedly get them wrong. I would make a piss-poor eye witness. Even if I described what had happened correctly, I wouldn't know that it ws true.
After apologizing over and over, saying that I forgot ad infintum and getting things so confused so often, I tend to withdraw from conversations all together.
Lately it has become increasingly difficult to keep track of my meds. Right now, out of the 10 medications I take, I am out of five. There really is no good excuse. I was short on money the past two weeks, but I've been out of a few of the meds for longer than that. Every day I look at the slowly-diminishing bottles, thinking "I need to place that order". To do so is practically effortless; I go online, click on a box, and about 5 days later they show up in the mailbox.
Come on, Mike, straighten up and just do it. If it were only that easy. Can you relate to this? Needing a "skill" (remembering) that is provided for by medication, the taking of which requires that very "skill", is a precarious situation.
How can you win?
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