3449Please tell me this happens to you. Please tell me the details; the when, where, how and why. I can think of dozens of excuses as to why it happens, but due to my mental illness, they are more like reasons.
This is really strange, and I think hard to explain, but here goes. As I see the pills slowly reduce in numbers, I realize that I need to place a refill order. It's not a defiant "NO". The thought simply goes out of my head, again ... and again ... and again.
Does this happen to you? What exactly is going on? Is it a memory issue? And the only frustrating part of this whole thing is when I actually run out, and am forced to deal with the "unmedicated" me.
The "unmedicated" me isn't fun at all. When this happens I feel like I am walking through a swamp full of jello and a thick fog, constantly being distracted by things that I (think I) see. My body tingles, kind of like I have the flu, and noises and sudden changes in my field of vision can set me off. I have a tolerance threshold of about "0", and I'm a little fearful of being in public, because of how I might react.
Well, the stars finally aligned, I placed the order for the meds I was missing and received them two days ago. I've been carrying a prescription for B12 and Prilosec, but have yet to send them in. I picked up the first prescriptions for these about two months ago, but lost them, and got a second round nearly three weeks ago.
All I have to do is mail or fax them, but I don't. At times my stomach kills me, but I still don't. I know my memory will decline, but still I hang on to the B12.
And this has happened many times in the past, is still happening today and undoubtedly will continue to happen in the future.
Ain't that special.
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